[it's a question no one has asked her, and she's desperate for it, because asking means there's permission. she can say what she wants - because someone is requesting this information. she doesn't have to merely take what's been handed, swallow it down endlessly, sick of the bitterness.
but still. what she wants feels like a world away, feels like a child's wish. feels like the most selfish thing in the world to ask for, when she knows why it can't be. she can imagine herself asking, promise you won't get upset, but then how much it would burn to hear no, because he knows she would never force him into that position.]
...for you to stay. Just for a little while.
[that will be enough. it's not the embrace she longs for, but it's a presence, and it has to be enough. if she holds on, then it will be enough - because she'll say it over and over in her head until it's real.]
Ahaha... that's funny... because I was gonna do that anyway.
[He's trying to be a little lighthearted about it, wick away some of the tension he can feel clinging like heavy air. He's still holding her hand... he's not going anywhere anytime soon.]
Ah, well... I might need to close up the shop later. [He can take a shift off if he needs to because it's just him and Komaeda, but he has to actually put the sign up and set the doorknob and everything.] ...But I've got some time.
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but still. what she wants feels like a world away, feels like a child's wish. feels like the most selfish thing in the world to ask for, when she knows why it can't be. she can imagine herself asking, promise you won't get upset, but then how much it would burn to hear no, because he knows she would never force him into that position.]
...for you to stay. Just for a little while.
[that will be enough. it's not the embrace she longs for, but it's a presence, and it has to be enough. if she holds on, then it will be enough - because she'll say it over and over in her head until it's real.]
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[He's trying to be a little lighthearted about it, wick away some of the tension he can feel clinging like heavy air. He's still holding her hand... he's not going anywhere anytime soon.]
Ah, well... I might need to close up the shop later. [He can take a shift off if he needs to because it's just him and Komaeda, but he has to actually put the sign up and set the doorknob and everything.] ...But I've got some time.
[Here and now, they have this.]