It's impossible to argue with that, and if Erin is not looking, perhaps she'll sense the great frustration that lives within Helena, the push and pull between being known and shutting up tight. She knows it's out of care, genuine friendship. But nervous as she is, as much as she thinks and thinks and sets the gears spinning in a way where they're apt to set off calibrations, it's all very much like what she said about wanting to jump out the window for air.

"...promise you won't laugh."

If Erin laughs at her she's moving out into one of those empty cabins and not coming back for three weeks.

"But...I have two large problems in the way of that concept. One is that I'm not sure they would even like the concept of the day. It's so...specific. And the second is that I've never actually...had to consider it as a specific day before."

She's not ignorant. She heard enough from others, she read enough. For goodness' sake, there were those two that half made a show of it - but then again, they clung to each other so tightly that it was a given. But for herself? She can practically hear her tutor's sweet, well meaning voice, gently coaxing a book from her hands. Come now, Helena. You can improve yourself instead of spending idle time with this. It's a decided no.